Being Patient

Being Patient

Being patient is one of the hardest things for me to accomplish.

Especially in NYC, everything and everyone moves at a mile a minute. You are always headed somewhere with a goal in mind. If you're not... then chances are you are getting overwhelmed by the people who ARE.

I have had to deal with being patient in so many ways since the beginning of this year. I have gotten sick with bronchitis, I've had a roommate decide to move out, I've had to help find a replacement, and I've felt the result of (intentionally) not auditioning/applying for many programs this year.

I made the decision to focus on enhancing my instrument and doing programs that I KNOW will help prepare me for graduate school auditions this next fall. However, this means that my summer is not packed with programs and shows.

I'm learning to be patient with this and realize that this was part of the plan. I'm doing a program and I'm working with people that I KNOW will get me to a point where I can find success in the upcoming audition season. I just need to trust the process and be patient with MYSELF.

When I had bronchitis it was so difficult for me not to practice and work on my technique. I made a conscious decision to take it easy during this time and do a minimal amount of singing. It was painful to wait and hold off when all I wanted to do was sing at the top of my lungs!

I kept willing myself not sing and, instead, practiced in other ways such as reviewing my translations, listening to recordings and doing breathing exercises. As I felt myself getting better, I carefully eased my voice back into singing music.

It was gradual and it was cautious.

Perhaps I was being overly careful, but now I am healthy once again and singing comfortably. My voice feels healthy and I know my body is grateful for not just plowing through the sickness and making myself hoarse.

I've also been learning about being emotionally patient.

Since the beginning of the new year, I confess that I was getting impatient with the people around me. There were things going on that frustrated me in many ways. I found that I was becoming more quick to lose my temper and growing annoyed at matters that didn't need to bother me at all. I felt like everything was either something that made me happy or angered me.

Since making that realization, I've been trying to find ways of calming down when I feel my emotions becoming unmanageable. Not to say that one should "manage" or "control" their emotions. On the other hand, lashing out at people isn't ever a good thing.

I have to understand that not everyone moves at my own pace. I also need to understand that not everything is going to go the way I want or plan.

Life is not always predictable and I need to be OK with that.

As my sister would often tell me "Sam, just chill out."

Cheers to a new month, with Spring just around the corner.

-Samantha Noonan


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