Just Your Typical Meltdown

Just Your Typical Meltdown

Since moving back home in NYC, I have experienced so many different feelings. In just one week. I was overjoyed and reflective, but, soon after arriving, the reality of my financial situation hit me.

I knew that it was going to be hard again, but some part of me hoped that it wouldn't e like starting all over. Unfortunately, that dream was too good to be true.

This time, pandemic aside, has been full of transitions as two of my roommates are moving out and the search for people to join our unit looms over my head. Many of the furniture pieces I shared with said moving roommates are being taken, which is only fair as they own them. However, I had not anticipated the responsibility I'd have to replace said pieces.

During this time, I've also been setting up my voice over studio in my pursuit of finding work in the voice over industry. It's exciting to practice, especially with all the new technology I've accumulated. On the other hand, it seems that just as I obtain all the necessary equipment, there is something more that is needed.

The list grows and grows.

I go back and forth with excitement and financial worry. In the span of one week, I experienced myself going through that all too familiar roller coaster. It was "under control" until it, as it always does, came to a boiling point.

The tears kept coming and regulating my breathing became difficult. Of course, it also happened while I was talking to my mother. Of course.

I slowly calmed down with the help of my mother and steady breathing exercises.

My mother reminded me that no matter what comes my way: "You can handle it. You can do it."

She is right. I can handle this. I can do this. I've done it before. I can do it again.

As I'm writing this the day after my meltdown, I'm trying to be more patient with myself. I will make things works and will rise from the situation. It also helped that I began my day with self-affirming meditation and a REALLY good latte.

I know I'm not the only one experiencing financial strife during this period, but I know that we can all get through this. We just need to accept our realities and be patient. AND BREATHE!

I am not alone and neither are you.

I hope you all have a wonderful day filled with self acceptance and patience. Take things one step at a time.

You can handle it. You can do it.

-Samantha Noonan


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